Hi, I'm making one of my rare appearances to say that understanding the nuances of various gender topics is becoming so unbelievably confusing to me. Up until half an hour ago I thought transgender and transsexual were the same thing. Now I am being told for the first time that they are different. But that's not all, because I also found out that their definitions are completely relative. That isn't even the end of it, because even if you identify exclusively with the opposite sex, you still decide whether you identify as trans or not. I have so much trouble understanding this for two reasons:
1: I have sort of a need to have the ability to see order in the universe and to be able to classify and rank everything. When I was a simpler, more awful person, I classified everyone by sex. then when I realized sex and gender were different, that ability to classify through a new variable made everything simpler, but now that I realize that you can just choose whether or not you identify as trans, my comfortable little world of boolean logic has collapsed on itself and I know nothing anymore
2: To be honest, I don't really understand how someone can "identify" as a gender. I mean I have a male body, so I guess that makes me male, but I'm not really sure what it means to "feel" male. I'm me. If I had two x chromosomes I would be a girl, but I don't, so i'm not. I'm not really sure how to explain this.
I'm sorry if I messed up and said something offensive here, because there were no offensive intentions. At this point I feel like a blind guy in a mine field.